people tell you to go easy on me and work it out.
i admit i did have times when im depressed.
but why do people always think that it's always me?
ALWAYS? have they ever put themselves in my shoes?
do they even know my side of the story and know how i feel?
if we make up now, we may minimise the times it happen.
if you and her dont go overboard.
im not trying to say im right.
i did not use you guys as a punching bag.
i really didnt. im not so simple just to take it out on you all when im angry or anything. i said it before, i just want you to know how i feel with you all doing that. i did tell you nicely. but i dont know why we just cant sit down and talk things out.
i disliked something you do, i did tell you.
if you knew, you could promise to not do it again.
and things will be just settled and everything will be fine.
i told you the same thing before, you apologised. fine.
but now you're doing it again. i told you.
you get angry. why must things turn out this way?
we dont understand each other.
that's exactly why i tell you stuffs that i dislike,
hoping you'll understand. but i dont know why things turned out like that. it does not mean that if you are different, we cannot be good friends.
HARMONY. this word existed to tell us that even thought everyone is different, there still can be peace by understanding each other.
you dont have to change to suite my style.
you all just can change the things that i dont like you all to do to me.
i did not change because i made new friends.
yes, i do treasure the friends i have now, but i dare to say,
i never neglected you all. we go out for lunch every wednesday.
we go out together during the holidays more times.
i always look forword to going out for lunch every wednesday.
i dont create a scene out of everything.
you said something that i dont like you to call me,
i told you and said nothing else.
leave me alone.. all i wanted you to do is just not do the same thing again.

we always patched up after some fight.
yes, we tried and we managed to climb so high. right to the top.
where friendships are so strong.
i dont know why we are slipping over such things.
i dont think it's worth it.
well, i'll tell you.
THIS IS NOT WHAT I WANT.

the times when we got pissed when she went out out with her friends instead of us.
the times when we chatted on the phone for hours.
the times when we were laughing about what we chatted.
the times when we went to the swing together.
the times when we had mcflurry with more oreo.
the times when we mixed the sauces together.
the times when we sat bus home together.
the times when we wrote letter to each other.
the times when we dislike the same person.
i really miss those times.
no, i dont want things to end up this way.


there are many obstacles in life.
everyone tells us that we will be able to overcome those obstacles.
i hope to overcome this obstacle in my life, cos it's making me cry.
yes, i want to get it over.
but a part of me tells me that this may not be easy.
i never wanted to end this.
i miss you